I Killed A Lot Of People – In My Dreams

I know this sounds bad and evil and scary, but I did dream that I killed a lot of people 2 nights ago.

The scenario was: The country is at war with our neighbour country. And the enemies are rushing to the frontline, on our land. Our commanding officer, was giving a motivational speech at the beginning, and was telling us that we must be ruthless towards our enemy, and this could be our last battle, the make it or break it type.

Not long after he finished the speech, we (the fighting contigent) started to charge towards the bridge that separates us from the enemy. As I was climbing up the top of the bridge, I could see hundreds of enemies charging in our direction and they were all wearing the black silat attire. In my view I could see some familar faces from Commando Battalion, bravely fighting against our enemy. Surprisingly, they were all fighting unarmed, all except me, I was shooting from my pistol. I was just shooting every unfamilar faces I see in my view, headshots most of the time. It was quite real and I was feeling the war atmosphere. I was killing every opposition I see and reloading my gun very quickly. That is because there is a sense of fear in me that I will be dead if the enemy are not dead. I want to see my family again.

So the shooting went on and on, I shot teens, women and men who were posing a threat to me. It wasn’t a great scene in my opinion but the shooting continues as my survival instinct keeps reminding me, their death is better than my death.

After about 5 mins (real time – seems like 30mins in the dream), the battle was won. We won that critical battle. But no one was smiling or laughing, because we all are losers. A few of us including myself broke down in tears, thinking why do we need to resort to such situation.

Then I woke up and I was glad that my wife and baby are sleeping next to me. Then 2 words suddenly appear in my mind, and I see it with a different perspective. “National Service”